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- Seventh Dimension - The City, Book 4, A YA Fantasy
- Seventh Dimension - The Prescience, Book 5, A YA Fantasy
- Seventh Dimension - The Howling, Book 6, A Young Adult Fantasy
- Seventh Dimension Inspirational - Am I Okay, God?
- Children of Dreams, An Adoption Memoir
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- The Donkey and the King, a Story of Redemption
- Book Love - Young Readers Become World Leaders - An Early Chapter Book for 1st though 3rd Grade
Thursday, December 27, 2012
CREATIVE WRITING INSIGHTS: “A Memoir or a Novel - How Does One Decide Which Way to Craft a Story Based on Real Life Events?” by Lorilyn Roberts
I strongly
disagree with his statement and share the following thoughts:
Memoirs are some
of the most powerful pieces written today, but people are shortsighted. They
don’t always see the value of first-hand accounts in the present. Without
memoirs, we have history written by partial observers who bring their own
worldview into play—maybe at the expense of writing with accuracy the way the
events actually happened. Second-hand accounts are never as factual as
first-hand stories and never as valuable for historical purposes.
Many people love
reading memoirs and will look for them in libraries and bookstores. Life
experiences written by people reveal more about society than any history book
or journalist covering a story. I am thankful for all the memoirs written today
by all sorts of people to give us a peek into the present and the past.
For example, the
world never would have known of Anne Frank if she had not written her diary.
She was an unknown 13-year-old kid before her father published her diary.
If you have a
compelling story to tell, tell it with passion, revealing your innermost
struggles and thoughts. Being “real” with the reader will make your story come
alive. In my memoir Children of Dreams about the international adoption of my daughters, I
was open and vulnerable. That was the right way to tell that story. I could
never have fictionalized it.
I just wrote
another book and this one is fiction, Seventh Dimension - The Door. In contrast with Children
of Dreams, I took certain events from my own life and turned them into
fantasy. I had a story to tell and the only way to tell it was as allegory and
to fictionalize it. The point being, do what the story calls for and write it.
Don’t let naysayers talk you out of writing your story the way you feel it
needs to be told. At the end of the day, you have to live with the result and
be happy with the story and the way you wrote it.
These are some thoughts I would
consider: Who is your target audience?
What is your purpose in writing your story? Can anyone be hurt or impacted
negatively if you write your book as a memoir? If you write your story as a
memoir in hopes of making money, you need to write your book as “creative
nonfiction,” using fictional techniques.
For example, you need a
beginning, a middle, and an end. You need to think in terms of “scenes” and “plot”
and “problems” that need to be solved. The reader needs a takeaway—what can he learn
from your memoir that would be meaningful or cathartic? No one wants to read
someone’s boring biography.
If you decide to write your book as
fiction, you will have more options and won’t run the risk of being sued or
worried about divulging something you might regret later. However, you need the
skills to write fiction. Writing fiction is harder than writing a memoir
because you have to create “story” out of fiction and make the plot enticing to
read. In a future piece, I will suggest some books for writing fiction that I
used in my Masters in Creative Writing that I found helpful.
The most important thing as a
writer is to keep writing and to keep learning—whether you write fiction,
nonfiction, or memoir, and enjoy the journey!
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
FREE ON ALL EBOOK PLATFORMS: “Seventh Dimension – The Door: A Young Adult Fantasy,” by Lorilyn Roberts
For every child who struggles with doubt, for every kid who has been bullied, for every teen who comes from a broken home, and for every young adult who longs to be understood - there is hope.
Best-selling author Lorilyn Roberts shares once again the power of redemption in this Christian coming-of-age novel. Written in first-person, Seventh Dimension - The Door reads like a first-hand account by a young girl, Shale Snyder, who is treated unfairly by her family, school, and classmates. Fear distorts her sense of self-worth and she is enveloped with guilt because of a secret from her past.
While on a sojourn similar to Christian in Pilgrim's Progress, Shale discovers talking animals and a handsome young man with whom she falls in love. Her journey is one of self-discovery as she battles personal demons, family conflict, and wicked underlings, and comes face-to-face with a personal decision she must make - bound up in the king she meets in first-century Israel.
“I spent two years developing the plot,” says Roberts, “as part of my Masters in Creative Writing. I love the classics, particularly books by Charles Dickens, Fydor Dostoevsky, Emily Bronte, C.S. Lewis, and J.R.R. Tolkien. I hoped to provide an entertaining story that would evoke deep spiritual longing.”
Roberts adds, “I was a troubled child from a broken home on the road to juvenile delinquency - until I met the king.”
Lorilyn Roberts lives in Gainesville, Florida, with her two daughters from Nepal and Vietnam. Manisha’s and Joy’s adoption stories were told in her bestselling memoir Children of Dreams. Part of her family’s memoir was featured on Discovery Channel’s Monsters Inside Me.
Seventh Dimension - The Door
A Young Adult Christian Fantasy
LORILYN ROBERTS
November 2012/Mass Market Original/Fiction
$11.77
ISBN 9781480153905
Seventh Dimension - The Door, A Young Adult Christian Fantasy
(Create Space, $11.77, 230 pages, 6 X 9, paperback, ISBN: 978-
1480153905), is available at neighborhood and online booksellers
(Amazon). For more information, visit
LorilynRoberts.com
Best-selling author Lorilyn Roberts shares once again the power of redemption in this Christian coming-of-age novel. Written in first-person, Seventh Dimension - The Door reads like a first-hand account by a young girl, Shale Snyder, who is treated unfairly by her family, school, and classmates. Fear distorts her sense of self-worth and she is enveloped with guilt because of a secret from her past.
While on a sojourn similar to Christian in Pilgrim's Progress, Shale discovers talking animals and a handsome young man with whom she falls in love. Her journey is one of self-discovery as she battles personal demons, family conflict, and wicked underlings, and comes face-to-face with a personal decision she must make - bound up in the king she meets in first-century Israel.
“I spent two years developing the plot,” says Roberts, “as part of my Masters in Creative Writing. I love the classics, particularly books by Charles Dickens, Fydor Dostoevsky, Emily Bronte, C.S. Lewis, and J.R.R. Tolkien. I hoped to provide an entertaining story that would evoke deep spiritual longing.”
Roberts adds, “I was a troubled child from a broken home on the road to juvenile delinquency - until I met the king.”
About Author
Seventh Dimension - The Door
A Young Adult Christian Fantasy
LORILYN ROBERTS
November 2012/Mass Market Original/Fiction
$11.77
ISBN 9781480153905
Seventh Dimension - The Door, A Young Adult Christian Fantasy
(Create Space, $11.77, 230 pages, 6 X 9, paperback, ISBN: 978-
1480153905), is available at neighborhood and online booksellers
(Amazon). For more information, visit
LorilynRoberts.com
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
BOOK REVIEW: “Seventh Dimension – The Door: A Young Adult Fantasy,” by Allbooks Reviewer Cecilia Lee
Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
Author: Lorilyn Roberts
Title: Seventh Dimension – The Door
This book is about our
need for ultimate love and understanding. Set in today’s society where
self-doubt, bullying, broken homes and brokenness is rampant, this book is a
must-read.
Seventh Dimension –
The Door is
a touching story about a hurt young girl who finds the ultimate love of the
king.
Meet Shale Snyder.
She is an emotionally and psychologically injured girl – after many years of
torment at school and abandonment at home, she is left empty and hollow inside.
She feels misunderstood. She has an internal longing, but for what she doesn’t
know!
One day, she is transported to a happy,
peaceful garden. She meets up with two talking animals: a fat, apple-loving donkey
and a cute, sweet rabbit, who tell her she is in the “king’s garden”. However,
a hint of evil disrupts the serenity of the garden, and while trying to escape
from the menacing presence, they, she and a dog whom she has known before get
transported to another world in the 7th dimension through a door,
hence the title of this book, Seven Dimension – The Door.
Our heroine has several adventures in the 7th
dimension. There are many weird things there – like a boy who is also from her
world, except 3 years into her future! She learns the king of the garden is
there. She wants to find out more about him and wants to meet him. However, she
has to deal with issues within herself as they stand in the way of her ability
to receive the king’s love. Finally, the story builds to an ending climax where
she is given the ultimate test.
You have to read this
book to find out who the giver of this amazing love is; who can mend a broken
heart, love unconditionally, understand unceasingly, and fill the void in our
hearts. You will be surprised to find out what our heroine has been longing for
all along. Also, read about all the curious circumstances in the 7th
Dimension.
You won’t be able to
put this book down until you reach the end. The author, Lorilyn Roberts, has
this incredible ability to build suspense until the climax in the end.
Don’t cheat and read the ending first because the journey into the 7th
Dimension is just, if not, more compelling and spellbinding. Bon voyage!
Cecilia Lee, Reviewer, Allbooks Review
International
Title: Seventh Dimension – The Door
Author: Lorilyn Roberts
Publisher: Rear Guard Publishing
ISBN-13:978-1480153905
Dec. 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
BOOK REVIEW OF SEVENTH DIMENSION - THE DOOR: A Young Adult Fantasy, by Amazon Reviewer/Author Sandra McLeod Humphrey
What a great mix of ingredients inherent in this Christian allegorical novel for young adults! There’s plenty of drama and conflict inherent in the ongoing battle between good and evil with a sprinkling of romance and even a dash of political commentary.
The animal characters are charming and the human characters are equally interesting. We immediately identify with the young protagonist Shale as she deals with her feelings of rejection, abandonment, and social isolation, and we can also empathize with Daniel and his conflicted feelings about just who the teacher really is--whether He is actually who Shale believes Him to be.
I love the concept of “multiple realities” depending on the choices one makes, and I think this is really a novel for all ages. It’s a journey of self-discovery but so much more!
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Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
GUEST POST BY AUTHOR CAROL A. BROWN: Book Review of Seventh Dimension - The Door
Shale Snyder is smart, determined, impatient--and a troubled teen. Abandoned by her father, misunderstood by her mother, step-father and school authorities; accused of cheating, isolated from her best friend, and bullied by other students? It is a crazy, difficult world she lives in--hard to know what to do, when to fight and when to walk away. Comfort comes in unique ways. The school counselor says she is gifted and an apparently homeless dog adopts her. When Shale runs away from home with her broken birthday gift (yet again) it is understandable.
In her flight, a weak ankle gives way; her head hits a rock and so begins the inner journey that changes everything for Shale. While unconscious she enters a dimensional door that leads her further and further into another time and place. She is chased from an idyllic garden through a second door to enter the time Jesus walked this earth and taught.
She comes face to face with the enemy of her soul and eventually defeats him. She briefly meets her long-absent father and wicked stepmother. She hears a wonderful teacher, discovers He is THE KING and then meets Him and is changed by Him. She brings her half-brother to Him for healing and during this time in this dimension finds the love of her life. Oh, yeah, she also talks with animals during all these events! There is plenty of drama; in fact, it seemed almost non-stop!
Arriving back in her own time and dimension, she finds people have changed. It is almost as if changes in the spiritual dimension have an effect on people in the natural dimension.
The issues of unfairness, injustice, not listening, and not taking people seriously were strong themes throughout; themes that many teens relate to. I felt that Roberts did an excellent job of incorporating the teachings of Jesus into the resolution of Shale's problems. Her characters were well developed. Some characters I loved right away and others I disliked immediately. Some grew on me slowly--I think young people would relate well to both the characters and the issues. There is a final warm fuzzy but I don't want to spoil it for you!
This is a book that I could recommend to teens interested in fantasy or who are dealing with similar issues as those Shale encountered. I would also recommend it to adults/parents of troubled teens to help give them an understanding from a teen perspective.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
AN ADOPTION PRAYER, by Lorilyn Roberts
By
Lorilyn Roberts
Jesus
said in John 14:18, “I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to
you.” According to the U.N., there are approximately 145 million orphans in
the world today.
Can
we be like Jesus, opening our beating hearts and stretching our empty arms
across the oceans to help destitute orphans who need our love? Can we not risk a little to sacrificially
give these little ones the knowledge of the Real Hope Giver? Can we not love
until it hurts? Can we not remove ourselves from our comfort zone of
blackberries, iPhones, plasma TV screens, and Starbucks Lattes to feel an
orphan’s pain and hear his stifled cries for love? If only for a moment, can we
enter into the movement of the Spirit of God and allow Him to stir our hearts
and move us in ways not our own and give us a longing to love one more precious
child?
But
not for the grace of God, go I. Without Jesus, we are all orphans. Let’s show
the world that Christians are indeed known by their love—enough to change the world
one life at a time.
Pray
that God would lead you to adopt. Pray that He would prompt you to open your
wallet to help. Pray that He would show you how to get involved. Let Him touch
your heart as He whispers to your soul. Someday, when you stand before the
Heavenly Father’s throne when all else has been left behind but the souls for
which Jesus died on a cruel Roman cross, you will be able to say, “I
surrendered my heart and mind to the endless possibilities You gave me, Lord
Jesus. I saved a child out of hopelessness, just as You saved me.”
Don’t
let it be, if only.
“I was moved by Lorilyn’s story of her
going to the ends of the earth to find her daughters.” Jerry B. Jenkins,
Novelist & Biographer, owner, Christian Writers Guild.
Monday, October 15, 2012
WHY DID I WRITE SEVENTH DIMENSION – THE DOOR? Devotional by Lorilyn Roberts
It’s easy to think of my life beginning
when I was four years old. A torrential storm sent lightning daggers through the
living room and thunder shook our tiny apartment. It was on that night, that awareness of life and death became real to me. Fear entered me for the first
time and made me realize how small and insignificant I was. In a home without a
father, I sensed there was something big and all-powerful that would
protect me if I asked. That was my first awareness of God.
Love growing up in a broken home was lacking,
but when you don’t know any different, you accept what is without question. God filled in those gaps later. Out of depravity, God provides
abundantly. Those who have great need later experience great healing and great
love poured out and overflowing. Every child born into this world God loves
just as much as He loves His Beloved Son. That gives me hope that no matter what
our circumstances, we can overcome. We will overcome by the blood of Jesus
Christ.
We can defeat those voices that tell us
we are no good, we can rest in the arms of Jesus Christ, we can embrace the
truth through Scripture, and we can share the love of God. Despite all the
obstacles that have hindered me, God is now giving me the opportunity to share
my passion for writing.
How does one come to know Jesus Christ if
one is afraid of other Christians, afraid of the church, afraid of rejection, or even afraid to go to Sunday School? (I failed first grade because I couldn’t
read and never wanted to read out loud after that).
God sent a dog named Gypsy to me. Sadly,
shortly after arriving on our doorstep, she was taken from me and dumped someplace
far away. For three days, I did nothing but cry. I lay in bed listening to
another violent storm outside my bedroom, wondering if she was okay. I feared I
would never see her again. For someone who had never known the Savior’s love,
or the love of a close friend, or the community of a church, she was my anchor.
For someone who didn’t own a Bible, who had never heard the words, “I love
you,” from the Source of all love, it was a scary world that offered little
security. I longed for something, but I didn’t know what it was.
As we were getting ready to leave on a
trip to North Carolina for Thanksgiving, I looked one last time up the hill from
our small apartment. I dropped my pillow when I saw a speck of white on the street
far away. Was it Gypsy? She was dirty and exhausted, but she was alive.
We were reunited—never separated again until her death many years later.
That day, I learned something profound—God
loved me and He would never leave me or forsake me. If He could return my
beloved dog to me against all odds, He had to be real.
I went to an elementary school that was
mostly Jewish, and so my school friends were Jewish. I was jealous they had that
sense of community that I never had. Why couldn’t I have been born Jewish?
My mother had recently married Gene Roberts and I asked my new father to take
me to Sunday School. On Sunday mornings, he would climb out of bed and drive me
to a church nearby we had never attended. There I learned about Abraham and
Moses. I felt Jewish because I was learning about the Jewish God. For my eighth
birthday, I asked for a Bible. My new father took me to the store and bought me
the King James Bible. I proudly wrote my name in the only Bible we owned
for many, many years.
When I was twelve, I had a good friend with whom I spent the night. Before she went to bed that night, she asked, “Do you
mind if I read my Bible ?” I had not grown in my faith since
I was younger as we had moved. My parents did make an effort to attend church a
few times, but the fights they had on Sunday morning were horrendous. Much to
my relief, we quit going. The Sunday
morning tirades turned me away from believing in a powerful God. Satan seemed
too strong for my family—where there were often scary confrontations that left
me insecure and worried. My birth father having left me, I feared my adoptive
father might, also.
God never quit loving me, but I lost
touch with Him until I met my friend who read her Bible.
I went home and started reading mine. I
read Job first – I could easily read that name – followed by Proverbs. Then I
decided to read something from the New Testament. Why not begin with the first
book—Matthew?
I became a born-again Christian by reading
about Jesus in bed late at night under a tiny light when I was supposed to be
sleeping. His profound words rang true with what I knew— the Old Testament
prophets and the proof-texts. The Jewishness of Matthew resonated with me
because of my past. His compassion for the poor, his willingness to risk everything,
and His death on the cross when He had done nothing wrong overwhelmed me. I
cried, humbled by His compassionate words that spoke to my heart.
I must have asked Jesus into my heart a
hundred different ways. Fearful I didn’t do it right the first time, I did it
over and over. When one is insecure and has little knowledge of the things of
God, fear plays too big a role. Fear convinces you that uttering the sinner’s prayer
is insufficient for salvation. When you have lived in a world of conditional
love and performance-based acceptance, it doesn’t seem like enough after all God
has done.
My insecurity and low self-esteem kept
me from growing as a Christian. I looked for value in worldly ways. I excelled
academically, making straight A’s through high school. I became an accomplished
classical guitar player, performing at major events. I was first runner-up in the
Junior Miss Pageant for Cobb County, Georgia. I never smoked a cigarette, never
drank, never hung out with the questionable crowd, never was promiscuous, and never
once took a risk that would have compromised on my very personal relationship
with Jesus Christ.
But deep down, I was hurting. As a
perfectionist, I struggled to believe people would like me if they knew how
“bad” I was. A flawed and distorted image of value crept into every aspect of
my thinking. I wouldn’t read out loud, wouldn’t pray in public, wouldn’t do
anything that could draw attention to myself outside of my academic and musical
accomplishments. My fear kept me from becoming the person God created me to be.
At nineteen, I met the love of my life
at the University of Georgia in chemistry class—who psychologists would call a
rescuer. We later married and I put him through medical school, hoping when he
finished, I could go back to college and get my degree and pursue my dreams of writing.
When I was thirty, he walked out on me
after getting his girlfriend pregnant. Those dreams of writing crushed me. I dropped
out of the University of Florida and went back to the horrid world of court
reporting, which I hated.
But something did change – I found a Bible-believing
church, a Christian Counselor, and Christians in the church reached out to me
with the love of Jesus Christ. I pulled out that dusty Bible and discovered the
Book of Romans. I threw out those pills I almost swallowed after God spoke to
me on another stormy night when I lay in a muddy creek bed. The Creator asked
me how I could take my own life when He sacrificed His beloved Son for me. How could
I stand before Jesus Christ if I committed this awful deed? His love for me
compelled me to give up that “right.” That was in 1985.
Since that time, many of my prayers have
been answered. My mother and Gene, who later adopted me, found Jesus Christ and
started attending church (without fighting). Gene died a humble man fifteen
months later after a valiant fight with brain cancer. I look forward to seeing
him when I arrive at heaven’s gates. My brother and sister found a church and
became believers.
My family is no longer just a moral family—they know Jesus
Christ. I believe God’s great work began with a stray white dog that found her
way into my heart so long ago. She was lost but she found me and wouldn’t let
go—just as God found me and wouldn’t let go of me either.
Today, I thank God for the opportunity
to write and share His great love with a world that is desperately lost.
Especially as we watch the news on television and the internet and see the
scars of hurting people because of sin, unbelief, and godlessness. We have hope
because God is a God of all hope.
While the Seventh Dimension – The Door is a Christian fantasy and fiction, many
of the ideas come directly from my life. Today, God is still working out His perfect
will on many levels—the birthfather I am estranged from, my desire to write
full-time, fueling the passion in my daughters to have no other god but the One
Living and True God.
The world’s lure is great and I will never grow weary of
praying for them. God, who brought them here from the other side of the world
as orphans, has a wonderful plan for them. As a single mother, I know the
battle for my children’s souls is great, but if I didn’t believe so
passionately that God as our heavenly Father can fill that void of earthly
fathers, I wouldn’t have adopted them. With one hundred and fifty million
orphans in the world, God chose them. I am humbled and honored to call them my
daughters.
For every young person who struggles with doubt, for
every child who has been bullied, for every kid who comes from a broken home,
and for every person who longs for the seventh dimension—Seventh Dimension – The Door is for you
God does not leave us if we come to Him.
Seventh Dimension – The Door is
written for those who will not hear of God’s love in the church because they don’t attend,
or through Christians because they don’t hang out with them, or through the
Bible, because they don’t own one. To know the King, it helps to know His Jewish
roots, so there is a strong Jewish element within the pages. Seventh Dimension – The Door is the book
I wish I could have read when I was a teenager. Seventh Dimension – The Door is now available across the web. Click here.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
BOOK EXCERPT: SEVENTH DIMENSION - THE DOOR: A Young Adult Fantasy, CHAPTER 1: “The Dark Secret of Shale Snyder”
Prologue
A diary entry many years later:
“Long ago, a magical
king was born in a kingdom where animals talked and intellect sparred with
spirituality. It was a time when truth transcended culture, forgiveness won
battles, and love conquered a young girl’s heart.”
But lest I get
ahead of myself, let me start from the beginning—which happened a long, long,
long time ago. So long ago, I barely remember the beginning of my journey to
the Seventh Dimension.
Chapter One
The Dark Secret
of Shale Snyder
I
hid in a closet underneath the stairs—my safe house. Nobody would find me in
here. It wasn’t used because the ceiling was too low. After the accident, the
closet became my friend. I wanted to avoid Judd, who came over to visit Chumana.
She was not my sister but we lived together.
Guilt
overwhelmed me. The door creaked as I turned the handle. I held my breath and
peered through the tiny slit. Moving shadows darkened the room. Judd, Rachel,
and Chumana stared into a small brown shoebox.
Chumana
burst out crying. “I hate Shale.”
I
cringed. She already hated me anyway, ever since we moved in with them a few
months earlier.
Rachel
stood and recited a Jewish prayer. “Barukh shem
k'vod malkhuto l'olam va'ed. Blessed is the name
of his glorious kingdom forever and ever.” With her unkempt hair, puffy red eyes, and
flushed face, I barely recognized my best friend.
“Why
are you praying?” Judd snapped. “We aren’t here to pray.”
“Accidents
happen,” Rachel said.
“She
should be cursed,” Judd exploded.
“Don’t
say that,” Rachel said.
“How do you know it was an accident?” Chumana
asked.
I
looked away. I couldn’t listen. My whole body quivered—what kind of curse?
Judd’s
voice cracked. “I demand she tell us what happened.”
The
three twelve-year-olds sat silently for a moment before Rachel responded. “She
fell down the stairs with Fifi and she’s afraid.”
I
swallowed hard.
Judd
pulled his uncle’s Atlanta Braves cap over his eyes and clinched his hand into
a fist. “I hope Shale never has any friends—for the rest of her life.” He covered
his face and sobbed.
I
bit my fingernail holding back tears. I’d never heard a boy cry. Could his curse
come true?
Chumana’s
red hair matched her fiery temper. “That’s not enough of a curse. She already
doesn’t have any friends.”
“I’m
her friend,” Rachel said. “Accidents happen.”
Rachel
lived two buildings down from us in the Hope Garden Apartments. Would she still
be my friend if I told her the truth? I didn’t just fall—it was what I was
doing when I fell. I was too afraid. I rubbed my swollen ankle, a reminder of
my foolishness. The doctor hoped it would heal, but Fifi lay in the box.
Probably
God hated me, too. If I told the truth, everyone would hate me. I couldn’t even
tell my mother. My father—he left me long ago.
***
Two Years Later
I felt a hand reach underneath my
blue skirt. I spun around on my toes. Students in the crowded hallway blended
into a blur of anonymity. Hurried bodies shoved past. Am I going crazy? Did I
imagine it? I scanned faces and froze each one, like a snapshot with a camera.
“Shale, why are you standing there?
Come on or you’ll be late to class.” Rachel was waiting at the hall lockers.
I walked towards her as the bell
rang.
“Are you okay?” She furrowed her
brow.
“I’m fine.” I smiled, pretending
nothing had happened. I’d think about it later. “Did you finish your analysis
of As You Like It?”
Rachel’s brown eyes bulged. “Is it
due today?”
“Here’s mine. You can take a quick
look if you need to.”
“Oh, thanks, Shale. I hate
Shakespeare anyway. No copying, promise. Just a peek.”
“It’s no different from reading
Spark Notes on the web,” I quipped.
When we walked into English class at
Garden High School, I sat in the seat closest to the door and stared out into
the darkened hallway. Who did it? What would I do if I caught him? Mrs. Wilkes’s
voice brought me back to reality as she recited from a Shakespearean play.
“All the world’s a stage.
And all the men and women merely
players
They have their exits and their
entrances
And one man in his time plays many
parts
His acts being seven ages.”
What was my part? At fourteen, did I
have one yet?
***
Later in the afternoon, I tripped
while stepping off the school bus. My books were scattered over the ground. My bum ankle
from the accident two years earlier would catch at the worst possible moments—what
I considered my eternal punishment.
Scrambling to pick them up, I wiped
the red Georgia clay off my math book. The bus waited long enough to make sure
it wouldn’t run me over before pulling away.
“Hey, wait up, ya’ll.” I walked
faster to catch up as Rachel stopped, but Chumana and Judd kept going. We still
lived in the same apartment complex on the south side of Atlanta—had for years.
“If you used a backpack, you
wouldn’t have dropped your books,” Rachel chided me.
“Mine broke.” I scanned Rachel’s
back. “Where’s yours?”
“I did my homework at school. This
is all I needed.” Rachel waved a thick book with strange-looking letters in the
air.
“Can you read that stuff?”
“Sure,” Rachel laughed, “but I don’t
know what it means. You could too if I taught you.” Rachel flipped to the first
page. “You start on this side.” Her finger pointed to a line of Hebrew and she
ran her finger across the page from right to left.
“Really?”
“Yes.” Rachel giggled. “So who reads
backward, the English or the Jews?”
“I’d say the Jews. I can say that since I’m
not Jewish, right?”
“Why not?”
“Writing would sure be easier if
English was right to left. I wouldn’t smear my words.”
Rachel nodded. “I forget you’re
left-handed. It’s crazy, isn’t it—like the Brits drive on the left side and we
drive on the right.”
We walked for a while not saying
anything. I glanced at my friend with her striking olive skin, almond brown
eyes, and brown hair. “Do you like being Jewish?”
“Yeah, I guess. I don’t know any
different.”
“I wish I was Jewish.”
“Why?” Rachel asked.
“It would be neat to be able to say
I was something.”
“You could go to church,” Rachel
suggested.
“Mom and Remi would never go. Every
time they talk about God or anything religious, they end up fighting.”
Rachel flinched. “That’s too bad. By
the way, thanks for your help with English.”
“You’re welcome.” I switched my
books to the left, thinking how much I hated the long walk home, especially
since we now lived farther away. The new unit we moved into when Remi and
mother married was at the very back by the woods.
Rachel frowned, noticing my musings.
“What’s it like having a father now?”
I bit my lip hesitating. “At least I
have my own bedroom and don’t have to share with Chumana.”
“That’s good,” Rachel agreed. “How
did you ever end up living with her anyway?”
“Mother didn’t have any money when
we moved to Atlanta. She found an ad that Chumana’s mother placed in the Atlanta Constitution looking for a
roommate. It was a cheap place to live.”
I eyed Judd and Chumana ahead of us.
“What are they talking about? They have been spending a lot of time together.”
Rachel lowered her voice. “I know.”
“Maybe they deserve each other.”
Rachel edged up even closer to me
and spoke in a whisper, “You never knew your father, right?”
“No.” I clutched my books which now
seemed heavier. “Mother couldn’t wait to marry Remi after being divorced for so
many years. Then she cried all night when they returned from their honeymoon in
the mountains. I couldn’t sleep. I wondered why, but was too afraid to ask.”
“Maybe it was a bad honeymoon,”
Rachel chortled.
“Silly you. How can you have a bad
honeymoon?”
“I don’t know,” Rachel replied. “I’m
sure it’s happened.”
“I hardly knew Remi the day they
married.”
“It’s hard to imagine what it would
be like to be at your own parent’s wedding. I mean, it might be funny if it
could happen,” Rachel said.
“Like Back to the Future?” Then my thoughts darkened. “How would you like
having a stepfather you don’t know?”
Rachel shook her head. “I wouldn’t.”
I’d never confided in anyone about
my past but now I couldn’t stop. “Presents arrive twice a year from North York.
I don’t remember anything about my father. One day he left and never returned.”
“I can’t imagine what that would be
like,” Rachel said.
“Sometimes I get angry.”
Rachel’s eyes widened. “About what?”
“Mother didn’t ask how I felt about her
remarrying.”
We walked in silence as my words
hung in the air. I kicked a rock on the sidewalk and it skipped into the
gutter. Rachel’s warm nature was comforting. She came from such a perfect
family, or it seemed. I’d tell her things I wouldn’t tell anyone else.
Voices from the past mocked me. “Do
I walk like a chicken?”
Rachel laughed. “No, you don’t walk
like a chicken.”
“Do I have big lips?”
“Big lips?” Rachel stopped and
stared at me surprised. “No.”
“You don’t think so? Every time I
wet them with my tongue, I worry I’m making them fat—so I was told.”
Rachel examined my fair face. I pretended
not to notice. “You’re beautiful. Who would say such mean things?”
I didn’t want to tell her. What was
the point in making him look bad?
“I love your green eyes and long
brown hair.” Rachel reached out and grabbed a couple of strands, flipping them
over my shoulder. “I wish mine wasn’t wavy with all the humidity. I use an iron
to straighten it but it doesn’t stay that way for long.” Rachel giggled. “Guys
love long, straight hair.”
“Remi wants me to call him dad, but
that seems weird.”
A few feet in front of us, Chumana
knelt on the sidewalk.
Rachel squinted. “What are they
looking at?”
An earthworm wiggled on the sidewalk,
barely warm from the late afternoon sun. A few weeks after Christmas, it was
the wrong time of year for creepy crawlers.
“It’s probably cold,” I said.
Judd lifted his foot to squash it.
“Wait,” I demanded.
Judd glared at me.
“Why kill it?” I asked.
He leaned down and picked it up,
dangling the worm a few inches above the sidewalk. “Have you ever dissected one
of these?”
I shook my head.
He stiffened. “I should make you
squish it between your delicate fingers.”
I stared at the worm. Judd dropped
it on the sidewalk. As he started to smash it again, I leaned over and shoved
him. “Just leave it alone.”
Judd’s face turned beet red. “Don’t
ever push me again. You hear me?”
I nodded. My knees spasmed like a
jack-in-the-box.
“You don’t like squishing worms but
you killed my puppy.” His icy eyes ripped at my soul.
Rachel said, “Get over it. You sound
so hateful.”
Chumana glared through her thick,
black-rimmed glasses. “Judd is right, though, Rachel. Don’t you remember?”
“I remember,” Rachel whispered.
My heart raced as I picked up the
worm—its slimy body was cold to the touch—and stuck it in my pocket.
Judd shook his head and stomped off.
Ruefully, I urged Rachel and Chumana,
“You two go on. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Rachel nodded. They continued walking,
leaving me alone.
After wrapping the worm up in some
brown leaves, I placed it on a warmer corner of the concrete. When I lifted my
eyes, I saw the white dog for the first time. She sat nearby wagging her fluffy
tail.
As I approached her, she stood and
limped backward. The scruffy creature was dirty and mangy, with floppy short
ears and almond brown eyes. If she belonged to someone or was lost, the owner wasn’t
taking very good care of her. A fuzzy feeling warmed my heart. Did she like me?
Before I could get too close, the dog turned and ran away.
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